God's Mercy and the prayers of my friends we made it through our CPS visit.  It was short and not bad.  I try hard to not let my fear/uncomfortableness show but after they left MN came to me and talked about how uncomfortable having CPS out makes her.  It brings back lots of memories and fears of her past.  We talked about how they have a job to do and because someone did the job right she is alive today.   She has no doubt she would be dead if she hadn't been removed.  She "gets" that, but it still makes her uncomfortable.  I so "get" that!  

They were only out maybe 20 minutes.   The adoption worker only has to come every 3 months the case worker has to come every month.  The case worker was terrified of the milk cows.  The Jersey to be precise.   She was telling us how BIG that cow was.   I tried explaining that she isn't big and she is very gentle. That I get almost under her every day to milk.  She told me she noticed the milking equipment.  I am trying to figure out what milking equipment she "noticed".  My milker is setting out, but it is just a big steel can.  You can't see the machine without going in the barn.  Then I have a light bulb moment.  She noticed that the cow had an udder!    She said she wouldn't be coming out alone.  She was to scared of the cows and such.  

I am reading a 2 book set that is sooo good and at the same time so heartbreaking/heartwarming.  The author is Kim Meeder.  The two books are Hope Rising and A Bridge Called Hope.  I really recommend anyone that has a heart for horses or kids read them with a BIG box of tissue.  Most of the stories have happy endings, but the getting to the end is painful and emotional at times.  Or maybe I am just still so touched by the Holy Spirit from this weekend I am more sensitive  to His touch in what I read.   Either way I read and tears flow and kids ask "Are you OK?", I nod and life goes on.  I have finished A Bridge Called Hope.    It is really the second book.   I am almost finished with the first book now.  The books are true stories from a ranch that does horse rescues and helps children heal using the horses they have saved and helped heal.  It is amazing!   They are Christian and very much gives God the credit for some amazing things.  

Life is starting around here so I better get busy. We are "planning" on a quite day around here.  Now plans and what really happens can be very different around here.  

My most exciting idea for today is to try and get some of the turtles out of the pond this afternoon.  I figure that will accomplish two things.  I can practice my shooting and rid the pond of a few annoying turtles.  The turtles kill the baby ducks when we have them.  The grab them by the leg and pull them under until they drown then eat them.   

Today I have a 12 yo boy!  We will have cake over the weekend.  Not even sure which day.  He has ask for dark chocolate.  MMMMMmmmm  A child after my own heart! 

OK time to gt busy!  Everyone leave a commit and share a prayer request or blessing in your own life!